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Ups and Downs

Have you ever felt like you can do anything in this world, you’ve done it and then as time pass… you want to accomplish things in your life but it feels like a huge black cloud were hanging over you and every time you want to try something or accomplished something like you used to before, it feels like you can’t do it and you felt that something or someone hindered you from it?

I had been feeling this way ever since someone tries to hurt me and destroy my career. It’s been a hard life. Like I wanted to network and learn more about what I love and passionate about but a person tries to destroy it by words. I don’t want to take it too much but it affect me in a way that it destroys my confidence level, questioning my ability and always made me wondered and regret of why I didn’t follow my gut to ask a pastor to pray for me while he’s just there in front of me before embarking my journey to the industry that I loved to venture too.

I thought everything would be okay, would be fine, but there’s someone who destroy it all for me and had to pick up the pieces, whatever left in me to get me back on my two feet again.

It’s like you’ve grown so much, you know so much, then they destroyed you, then you have to walk like a baby again from beginning.

Everything that you’ve been working hard for. All your lives, only to find that all of those time, you were stuck, you were limited, and you were nothing just an ordinary people no matter how hard you fight in wanting to feel unique or different from anyone else in the world.

It’s suck.

It’s MORE THAN suck.

You feel stuck. You felt like you are a failure and nothing could help you get back from it.

I don’t know what would comes in the future about this.

But I’m glad that I have overcome it well now, at least, I DID pick up the pieces and MOVE ON.

Now, I can look at to that past event with an attitude of

“DEAR DESTROYER OF MY LIFE AND CAREER,

I THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME STRONGER THAN EVER BEFORE

AND I FOUND OUT, YOU ARE ONLY MESSING WITH MY MIND, NOT MY CAREER.

I HAVE GOD, AND HE WILL PROTECT ME FROM PEOPLE LIKE YOU.

I THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME MORE CAREFUL / CAUTIOUS WITH PEOPLE THAN I EVER WILL BEFORE.

AND I WISH YOU WELL IN LIFE.

LOADS OF LOVE,

VNZ. ”

 

Author:

Jesus. #TreatPeopleWithKindness Head of Hospitality @FullColorParty Loves to Write I love concerts, and everything about music Loves to assist and help others I am always prepared for everything Loves to travel but I can't travel light - I've tried tho! :D Feel Free to chat me about things! I'm struggling with anxiety / dark thoughts / brain noise (as Chris Evans might said it :P) - sometimes :)

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